Thursday, March 1, 2012

I gave up

Google Reader has been sitting at 1000+ unread posts for a few weeks now.  I was trying to just scan through the posts quickly, but it wasn't quick enough.  Then I tried just going to some of my favorite blogs to catch up, but I have too many favorites.  Today I just marked everything as read, and I'm going to start fresh.

I wish we could pick and chose what we start fresh, and not just our blog readers.  The last 6 months feels like its just been one melodramatic thing after another, and mostly medical with the family.  My poor Grandma just can't catch a break.

On Tuesday I was just commenting to her how pleasantly surprised I was at how well she'd bounced back from her last trip to the hospital.  I should have kept my damn mouth shut.  Wednesday morning she called us in horrible pain.  She'd fallen down in the night, twice, and had to call for assistance to get up.  She declined going to the ER at 1am, but asked the staff to call us.  They did, but not until 11 am the next day, after we'd been in her room since 7:30 am.  The last 24 hours have been mentally agonizing.  To make a long story short, she broke a bone in her shoulder, needs surgery, but won't be getting it due to heart and kidney issues, along with her diabetes.  The prognosis isn't great.  Without surgery, she's expected to get back 30-40% mobility, which means she probably won't be able to use her walker.  Hello wheel chair.

Trying to find a silver lining in all this, she and I managed to share a wonderful moment together yesterday.  Let me back up a bit.  Grandma hates ERs, they're cold, noisy, uncomfortable and she's always getting poked with needles.  At the time, we didn't know if her arm was just bruised, or she had a fracture.  Her doctor couldn't order x-rays without an appointment first.  Knowing all that, we made the decision to just make her as comfortable as possible in her own room until we could take her in for the appointment.  Drugged up on Tramadol, with an ice pack, and in her recliner, she and I watched one of her favorite movies - That Touch of Mink.  I should say, she dozed, and I watched, while working on some cross stitch.  It was probably the last truly peaceful moment she'll have in a while.  No matter what happens, I'll treasure the memory, especially since the project I was working on was my BBD Anniversaries of the Heart.

I missed the TUSAL posting date (Feb 21).  My mind just has a hard time with moon dates as deadlines.  I do much better with end/beginning of the month.  Oh well, here's my little hobnail sugar dish with the ORTs from February.

I'm also late for my February Theme-a-licious wrap-up, but I still need to take a picture.  Hopefully that will get taken care of in the next day or 2.  Right now my priority has been more on actually doing stitching to de-stress than to take pictures of the stitching and post about it.

24 comments:

Margaret said...

Oh Mindi. I'm so sorry about your poor grandmother. How awful for her to be in such pain and not able to do anything about it. And the prognosis too. :( Life can be so hard. I'm glad you had a precious moment with your grandma during all the waiting. It's important to treasure those moments. I will be sending good thoughts and prayers for your grandma and for you too. Hugs.

RuthB said...

Hugs (gentle hugs) to grandma... and you. Best wishes to you all and best wishes to your stitching. I can't wait to see more of your Anniversaries. Oh, and I do love your hobnail TUSAL container :)

Jan said...

Love to your grandma. Your TUSAL is very full!

Denise said...

Many blessings to your grandmother.
I know she is very special to you.

Ginny said...

I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. Savor those memories. Funny movie, BTW; I saw it for the first time not too long ago. I do hope that the doctors can do something more for your grandmother.

Peggy Lee said...

Sending prayers for your grandmother.

{{hugs}}

CalamityJr said...

I'll keep Grandma in my prayers!

Christine said...

Sending my best wishes for your grandmother

Lois said...

Mindi, I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. I hope that she is able to have the pain controlled, she must have been in awful pain.

Chris said...

Hey Mindi,
I am thinking of you and your Grandmother. I love that you had some special time with her in the midst of everything.
The rest of us will be here when you have more time. Just know we miss you when we don't see you posting and are thinking of you!
Hugs!

Vickie said...

How sad for your Grandma right now. Pain is horrid, I know, I live in it daily. I am praying for her. So special that you can visit and be there for her. :) http://astitchersstory.blogspot.com/

Giovanna said...

So sorry for your gran - I hope she gets a break now, and that things will improve.

Cath said...

Thinking of you and your Grandma . Take care .
XXXX

Deb said...

I'm sorry to hear about your grandmother. My thoughts and prayers go out to you!

Dani - tkdchick said...

Sometimes life just doesn't make things easy does it! I think many of us (myself included) are glad that February's behind us now.

I love your litte ort container its so cute!

Carol said...

Your grandma is so lucky to have you nearby...sounds like she's going to need every ounce of your youth and strength in her recovery, Mindi... Sending all positive thoughts to you and your family!

Lynn said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your Grandmother. I will keep her in my prayers.

Lesley said...

My elder son broke his collar bones one each side and I know the agony he was feeling, with youth on his side. I am so sorry to hear of your grandma's pain. Am thinking of you both.

Your ORT's container is so pretty.

gracie said...

Sorry about grandma..... it is so tough when we start to age... I wish her some comfort...and for you some rest.

Beth said...

Oh our Elders can be so very fragile. Thoughts with you and your Grams too. Lovely blog header.

Sally said...

So sorry to hear about your grandma. Thinking of you both.

Siobhán said...

I'm so sorry about your grandmother, Mindi. Sending her (and you) hugs and I will keep her in my prayers. It's so hard to see our loved ones in pain. xoxox

Isobel -Argante- said...

Hugs to your dear Grandma, I'm really sorry...
I came here just to thank you to have visited my blog and say Happy Week end, but now I'm happy to leave you a sweet hug :-)

Isobel
The Primitive Hare

Joysze said...

Mindi, I'm so sorry to hear about your grandma. :(

1000+ post.... I feel your pain. I'm making my way through 600+ cos I haven't had time to read blogs fort the last week or so. Fresh starts are always good. :)