I gave up

Google Reader has been sitting at 1000+ unread posts for a few weeks now.  I was trying to just scan through the posts quickly, but it wasn't quick enough.  Then I tried just going to some of my favorite blogs to catch up, but I have too many favorites.  Today I just marked everything as read, and I'm going to start fresh.

I wish we could pick and chose what we start fresh, and not just our blog readers.  The last 6 months feels like its just been one melodramatic thing after another, and mostly medical with the family.  My poor Grandma just can't catch a break.

On Tuesday I was just commenting to her how pleasantly surprised I was at how well she'd bounced back from her last trip to the hospital.  I should have kept my damn mouth shut.  Wednesday morning she called us in horrible pain.  She'd fallen down in the night, twice, and had to call for assistance to get up.  She declined going to the ER at 1am, but asked the staff to call us.  They did, but not until 11 am the next day, after we'd been in her room since 7:30 am.  The last 24 hours have been mentally agonizing.  To make a long story short, she broke a bone in her shoulder, needs surgery, but won't be getting it due to heart and kidney issues, along with her diabetes.  The prognosis isn't great.  Without surgery, she's expected to get back 30-40% mobility, which means she probably won't be able to use her walker.  Hello wheel chair.

Trying to find a silver lining in all this, she and I managed to share a wonderful moment together yesterday.  Let me back up a bit.  Grandma hates ERs, they're cold, noisy, uncomfortable and she's always getting poked with needles.  At the time, we didn't know if her arm was just bruised, or she had a fracture.  Her doctor couldn't order x-rays without an appointment first.  Knowing all that, we made the decision to just make her as comfortable as possible in her own room until we could take her in for the appointment.  Drugged up on Tramadol, with an ice pack, and in her recliner, she and I watched one of her favorite movies - That Touch of Mink.  I should say, she dozed, and I watched, while working on some cross stitch.  It was probably the last truly peaceful moment she'll have in a while.  No matter what happens, I'll treasure the memory, especially since the project I was working on was my BBD Anniversaries of the Heart.

I missed the TUSAL posting date (Feb 21).  My mind just has a hard time with moon dates as deadlines.  I do much better with end/beginning of the month.  Oh well, here's my little hobnail sugar dish with the ORTs from February.

I'm also late for my February Theme-a-licious wrap-up, but I still need to take a picture.  Hopefully that will get taken care of in the next day or 2.  Right now my priority has been more on actually doing stitching to de-stress than to take pictures of the stitching and post about it.